Expressing yourself

I have lived with my husband in the Netherlands for more than 4 years. One day, he called me from work and asked me if I wanted to move to Singapore. The answer to that was an immediate Yes of course! I loved the idea of moving to Singapore. First because it is warm and sunny in contrast to The Netherlands’ gray skies. I also loved the varieties of food they have here and the places that we can explore.

We moved to Singapore and explored it. There were times though that my husband needs to go on business trips to the US because their headquarters is there. That used to be a difficult time for me because I would feel lonely. My friends in Europe are just waking up when I am about to sleep.

I did try to meet people, make friends with expat wives from expat forums. I went to a couple of meet ups but most of them have kids or are pregnant. I didn’t fit in. They would talk about things I have not experienced yet or things I am not really interested in e.g like country club memberships and the latest baby strollers. It was all about keeping up appearances and I didn’t really want to be a part of any of that.

I tried to meet Filipinos as well but again I did not fit in because they are all in the workforce or are planning to join the workforce. It was very difficult time for me.

So to fill my boredom, I spent lots of hours browsing and reading in the internet. I saw people expressing themselves through their blogs. They even Create Blog discussions asking readers what they think of a certain topic. It looks fun so I tried it and now it is already a part of my life.

Growing up, I kept a diary and I wrote there there my thoughts on things that I could not share with my parents or friends thinking they might not understand me. I also write there when I feel sad or lonely. But in this new age, people share their thoughts on blogs. And it is just amazing how people from other parts of the world can relate to what you are saying. My blog is a place I created a place where I can just be me and write down everything that comes to mind.

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gengen December 17, 2008 at 8:51 pm: Thanks Jade for the comments in my blog. I also spent a lot of time in my blogs especially I have 6-7 that are active. Don’t worry there are many people in the internet that are nice…